Life is short

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Post-Block Test Traumatism

Block test ended some time back and the aftermath of it still lingers around within me. We received back our mark scripts back before chinese new year.The results for me were below what i expected after completing the paper and far below my expectations for the subjects. Starting with maths, results were 10 over marks below what i predicted. From this block test i realised that Hardwork is never proportional to results.Why are others doing so much better than me despite the so little effort they put in relative to mine? Does born smart play a part here? Or is there some "behind doors mugging" going on? While giving a impression of not studying at all. I'm sure everyone has seen alot of these hypocrites around.Maybe doing well in one subject unexpectedly would be luck or/and talent. How about those doing well in all subjects?
I have received only my maths and physics paper back,they are E and AO respectively.Chemistry wouldn't be any better i guess. This has kept my mood down for days.Imagine having this kind of results during the promos. Maths has been my main concern. The amount of effort i put in isn't giving me the yield i deserve. Maths is about practice and im sure i did enough of them.Maybe its the bit of talent which everyone else has which i don't.Hardwork isn't enough to make up for it.
The results not only served as a wake up call,it has forced me to reflect.How did all this happen?What did i not do right? This Chinese new year break came in handy. A time for me to take a break from the heavy work load and a time to relax,to recover from the setback. Like others maybe have said, this is only a block test not be worried about. However this is not just a test like others.It has served its purpose.

~}Dreaming of you @ {10:11 PM}

Friday, January 20, 2006

Warning:Boring entry.Do not waste your time.

I joined the morning rush after 8 today.It was different from the other days.Instead of students,working adults were rushing to work. Instead of taking a nap like i always do, i was observing everything around me. First incidient was a woman dashing from the other side of the road and cut infront of the bus i was on when the bus was about to move off.The impression given to me was, stupid. Isit worth catching the bus and risk losing your life.She just dashed across the front of the bus,what if the driver didnt see her? This was nothing compared to another woman who alighted the next stop with her child.She crossed the road by cutting in front of the bus.This time,the bus moved a little and the brakes put the bus to a sudden stop. That was so stupid. Such incidents are so common that i believe singaporeans are getting used to it huh? Such incidents really set me thinking and reflecting,making sure i do not commit stupid things others are doing. Continuing the journey, the bus started to have minor breakdowns.The front door couldn't open for a while and the bus had to stop at a few occasions during to malfunctionings. The bus ride was longer and more meaningful than usual.
My day was spent rotting.Did alittle of maths in the morning and went home to rot till now.Feeling very lazy.Too many things to study,no where to start. I still have to start it somewhere,somehow. Hopefully i will the motivation to start working.

~}Dreaming of you @ {10:03 PM}

Friday, January 13, 2006

Brain Freeze

Brain freeze
It has been raining for the past few days.Cool weather indeed.Today was unexpectedly warm.We had 5km run around kathib and yishun during PE lesson. We didnt have much time before we had to attend chem lec at LT.LTs are known for the cold environment.What added to it was,we were all wet from the run.Within 5 mins,everyone was freezing.It was worse than the experience at Snow City.My brain cells froze,fingers were numb,couldn't even concentrate. I finally realised why our school is always low in funds. Electrical bills isn't gonna be low for them.

Im starting to get used to sch,ever since the year end holidays.I hardly have anytime for plain slacking.Homework are flooding.No matter how hard i try,there will never be a "no-homework-day" Even if there is,let's not forget the tests/exams. 2 Weeks since school reopened,next 2 weeks are the test weeks.There goes our weekends again. Life's at the beginning of the year's so busy already,what will happen to us nearing the "A''s? Maybe it is good to keep us on track early than let us do last minute work.But imagine one whole year of non-stop work.Not many will be able to take it. Maybe i have too high expectations of myself.I can't seem to meet my own expectations.Ever since the disappointing promo results,i promised myself to work hard.Im only starting to keep to my promise when my brain's throwing temper.
Now the weekends are here,a break in time for my brain. A time for me to sort out my thoughts.Reflection time.Time to let go of my frustrations i have been holding on.

The Worst human life form
Self-pity is the worst quality we can have.Expecting others to pity you is the worst of the worst.
Attention should be gained through fame and not from that kind of pity that others give you.
The worst personality i have seen is one that have so much self-pity that the person expects others to pity him/her.When others others don't,they turn into attention seekers and do stupid things to gain your attention.

~}Dreaming of you @ {11:31 PM}

Monday, January 09, 2006

1.Whats a sissy bond?
2.Ever seen a luxurious sports car with a "L'' sign behind?
3.East coast park have 15km/h speed limit signs for bicycles.

(sissy bond ----> C-C bonds) .Lame,i know it.

~}Dreaming of you @ {11:40 PM}

Thursday, January 05, 2006

About me.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

~}Dreaming of you @ {9:13 PM}

Can i have more than 24hrs a day please?

It has been 3 days since school reopened.Stress seems to be getting to me alittle too soon.Additional homework was added to the unfinished holiday homework.24 hrs don't seemed enough to me.The stress must have made me sleepy,which causes me to sleep around 10-11pm everynight.That's kinda early. We have a total change of teachers except for maths.CT is Madam Ho.She keeps a low profile and many people have not seen her before even being in this school for more than a year already. She seems more like the "soft" kind with no temper and soft-spoken.I was banded to her physics class too.I trust her with my physics. I am happy that my previous tutor is not taking anymore.I personally dislike him alot,and i bet im not the only one.(214 peers should know why and who). I was in the same band for both sciences as last year,but this time with different teachers and peers. Chemistry tutor is Ms chua. A friendly teacher i feel.
As for GP,tutor is Mr Ganesh.I personally do not like his teaching style or his lessons.Rumours of bad teaching/things have been heard.I shall not say anything,who knows what will happen to me or my blog if i do.People being charged with rash/offensive things they said out of anger is such a common thing nowadays.Perhaps we should watch we say before others see it as such a big deal and start to sue you for the smallest things.Maybe we have lost the freedom of speech.

I need a break from work.Weekends are coming.

Every single thing just seems to drain the life out of me.I wish i could still stand strong.

~}Dreaming of you @ {8:22 PM}

Monday, January 02, 2006

A new yr!

A new yr, a new beginning..
New year resolutions.
1.Study hard
2.Bowl less often.
3.Work on my Bowling
A wasted holiday,a new year,a good time to start afresh and go hard!
Hope i will have the determination to work hard.

Happy 2006!

~}Dreaming of you @ {10:08 PM}